Yesterday I had a really rough day at work. Between my work computer crashing, responsibilities that felt too hard to handle, and people from every direction demanding I do more, I nearly lost it. In fact, I did. At one point I had to close my office door and just cry. Luckily I have a wonderful boss, who, when I emailed him telling him I was too overwhelmed, immediately called me and talked through the things that could be changed to alleviate some of the pressure. I was so grateful.
When I got home last night, I was drained. I spent some time with Dave and then went for a run, and he left for his Monday night Bible study.
I walked into our bedroom and looked at my shelf of books. I wanted to read, but I didn't know what. I just needed an escape. Then I remembered about how I'd been reminded lately that God cares even about the small things in life. He wants to help me make every decision if I'll let Him.
So I said, "Okay God, lead me to what you want me to read."
I stood there for a few moments, then felt myself drawn toward a particular book titled "Running on Empty." I picked it up, sat down, and started reading. At first I wasn't sure if it was what I really needed. But I continued anyway. I started to get wrapped in and enjoy what I was reading.
At a point in maybe the third chapter, the author wrote about a poem, and in the title of the poem were the words "Give Me Jesus." Suddenly my mind flashed to the song by Jeremy Camp, the song that has touched me so much in the past. I hadn't heard it in a long time, but suddenly I needed to listen to it right away. I jumped up, grabbed my iPod, and flipped to the song.
As soon as it started, tears started pouring down my face. God was speaking straight to my soul with that song. I felt all my anxieties and stresses fade away as I cried and listened to the words, "You can have all this world, just give me Jesus." Yes, I needed to remember that. Take all the world away from me, but give me Jesus. Sometimes this world seems like it's too much to handle. But then we are reminded that we don't need to please the world. We need to please Jesus. He is all that matters. We can completely fail the world, and He will still love us and want to be right by our side.
I listened to the song several more times until I felt calm and rested. Then I did some Bible study while I played Christian music in the background, and I could feel my soul being rejuvenated as I refocused on what really matters. By the time Dave came home from Bible study, I was a completely different person. I was calm, happy, and secure.
I share this story because it opened my eyes to how God can work through even the smallest things. I offered to let Him lead me to a book, and little did I know that through that book He would lead me to a song that would lead me back to Him and refresh my soul.
Involve God in the little things. Invite Him into your daily life. You may be surprised at what He can do.