The grass may look greener on the other side,
but it still has to be mowed.
Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. - Hebrews 13:5
So often I look at what another person has and think, "Wow, if I only had what she has..."
But oftentimes I forget that what that person has brings other complications and responsibilites with it beyond what I see. God gives us all what He wants us to have. There is a reason we have what we have. God knows what we can handle at certain times in our lives. He knows what we need. Sometimes he keeps something from us for a purpose greater than our eyes can see or our mind can comprehend. And we just have to trust, believe, and follow anyway.
I found myself thinking that a lot over the last couple weeks when Gerry and I were worried about extra expenses and money in general. I tried to remind myself not to be anxious in anything, but to pray often... and i tried to find solace in what paul says about knowing what it's like to have lots and nothing and being okay either way. but i still teetered on the brink of not believing God was taking care of the situation until the solution was right before my eyes. the day before our mortgage was due, i was sorting through junk mail and happened to notice that one piece looked like a check. so i opened it up. it was an amount greater than we needed to meet our bills, and it had been in that stack for over a month. God provided and brought us all we needed long before we knew we needed it. it was an amazing feeling. humbling, sure, and a little embarrassing. but it's good to have my pride squashed and my faith tested. i hope next time i start to worry, i can stand in faith that God really knows just what we need and just when we'll need it :)ReplyDelete