Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Will this Never end?

Well...I'm still sick. This is now Day 5 that I am spending laying (lying?) on the couch. The sore throat went away, only to turn into a canker sore and scratchiness in my throat, painful and itchy ears (inside), congestion, runny nose, cough, fever, headache, and fatigue. I'm like, wow, this is awesome.

I'm honestly concerned about missing this much work. The doctor told me to not go back until Thursday, and by that point I will have missed 4 days. That's a lot. Especially when people aren't planning on you being gone.

I'm trying to tell myself not to worry. I've been reading a lot about how worry gets me nowhere, and that I need to just pray to God and trust Him and know that everything happens for a reason and He's got it all under His control. As long as I'm following Him and obeying Him, then what is best will happen.

Still...try convincing yourself to think that way when you have to email your bosses Monday and inform them you won't be returning to work until Thursday because you're sick. It's very hard to justify "sick," you know? Most people think, "Oh, she's got a runny nose, boo hoo." Nobody really ever thinks of SICK sick. So then you feel like you have to explain your symptoms so they believe you're really actually unable to come into work. But then you worry that they'll think you're throwing a pity party. Sheesh, do you see what my mind does to me? Takes me in ridiculous circles of worrisome thoughts that get me absolutely nowhere. I could think like this all day long. Dave says my brain never slows down. He laughs all the time at how I jump from one thought to another, with half of the thoughts being nonsense or completely unlikely to be true. I've been working on it though. Lots of Christian self-help books. I'm getting better. I'm a work in progress.

Anyway, I'm currently laying on the couch, burning up even though I have the temperature at 74 degrees. It's actually kind of odd...my toes are always cold. My upper body is screaming for colder temperatures and my toes feel like they're going to fall off from frost-bite. So then I think to myself...do I cover my toes, or don't I? If I cover them, it makes my body hotter...not good. But if I don't cover them, they hurt from the cold and cause more discomfort...also not good. So what do I do? Such a two-edged sword.

Alright I'm going to do some Bible reading and then maybe play some Rollercoaster Tycoon 3: Platinum...the new game I bought Sunday. It's SOOOO awesome! I used to play Theme Park when I was younger, which was the best game ever. Now Rollercoaster Tycoon is a modern-day version of Theme Park...which makes it even bester. It's just awesome. I've almost become an entrepreneur (is that how you spell it?) in the first land already. I'm pretty pumped about it.

Alright hope all you readers are doing well. Adios.

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