I just read these words in an online article (bold added by me), and I wanted to share:
"I believed in God and had been brought up in church. I knew the Bible said that Jesus Christ died for the sins of the world, that He was buried, and rose on the third day. If someone had asked me if I were a Christian, I would have said, "Yes." Yet there was a storm raging within me.
"In my search for solutions, I went back to the Bible. Upon reading a verse (Matthew 6:33a) that said, "Seek first the kingdom of God," the reality hit me that I had sought God's help all my life, but I had never sought God Himself. I realized that being born into a Christian home, going to church, or just believing was not enough. I not only had to believe but I had to personally—by faith— seek God. I prayed that night as I had never prayed before, asking for God's forgiveness and for Him to take control of my life...
"...How reassuring! And it is reassuring to know that I can draw my confidence in performing my daily roles from knowing God loves me and has a purpose for me, no matter what the outcome may be. It motivates me to accept challenges. It prevents fear from paralyzing me when others doubt me, associates discourage me, and friends or family don't understand me. It comes from a continual choice to believe that when I feel unsure and frightened about who I am and what I can do, God is there."
These words really touched me, because they explained a part of my Christian journey that I've never been able to put into words. Up until about a year and a half ago, I'd always sought God's help, but never God Himself. It's the difference between believing in God and having a relationship with God. And now that I have a relationship with Him, I know that I am doing my best to follow His will and that whatever may come, whether I succeed or fail in any circumstance, it is in line with what God wants for my life. It takes a load off your shoulders.
If you'd like to read the full article, you can find it here: http://christianwomentoday.com/growth/sheilawest.html.